It has been awhile since I posted. There really is not much to say that wouldn't sound to negative or of despair from the pain that we feel every day of every minute. I could post daily on that stuff. Hell I could post by the minute of every thought or memories of Caitlyn. They all come with such joy but always end with a pain in my throat and tears clouding my vision.
So instead I have found this passage from the book "the secret". I have been really trying to believe that she is all around me. But I don't want to just try and believe it I try to truly feel it. So I found this passage to be enlightening. It is not easy to always believe our loved ones are still here with us even though we can't see, touch and feel them. It's hard to except the energy being over the physical being. But I try.
"Most people define themselves by this finite body, but you're not a finite body. Even under a microscope you're an energy field. If you ask a quantum physicist and say what creats the world? He or she will say. It can never be created or destroyed, it always was, always has been, everything that ever existed always exists, it's moving into form, through form and out of form. You go to a theologian and ask the question, what created the Universe? and he or she will say. God. Ok, describe God. "Always was and always has been, never can be created or destroyed, all that ever was, always will be. always moving into form, through form and out of form.
So if you think you're this "meat suit" running around, think again. You're a spiritual being! Your an energy field, operating in a larger energy field.
Energy just changes form. And that means you! (Caitlyn) The true essence of Caitlyn, the pure energy of Caitlyn, has always been and always will be. Caitlyn can never not be.
James Ray from the book the secret.
We have had a few sweet gifts left under Caitlyn's tree. Thank you to our friends that think of us. A hand made necklace, Disney princess globe, and a teddy bear. Thank you to girl scout troop 6145 for your donation to the National Childhood Cancer Foundation.
We made a very personal decision to donate her tumor to research in hopes that some day there will be a cure.
The Churak Family
So instead I have found this passage from the book "the secret". I have been really trying to believe that she is all around me. But I don't want to just try and believe it I try to truly feel it. So I found this passage to be enlightening. It is not easy to always believe our loved ones are still here with us even though we can't see, touch and feel them. It's hard to except the energy being over the physical being. But I try.
"Most people define themselves by this finite body, but you're not a finite body. Even under a microscope you're an energy field. If you ask a quantum physicist and say what creats the world? He or she will say. It can never be created or destroyed, it always was, always has been, everything that ever existed always exists, it's moving into form, through form and out of form. You go to a theologian and ask the question, what created the Universe? and he or she will say. God. Ok, describe God. "Always was and always has been, never can be created or destroyed, all that ever was, always will be. always moving into form, through form and out of form.
So if you think you're this "meat suit" running around, think again. You're a spiritual being! Your an energy field, operating in a larger energy field.
Energy just changes form. And that means you! (Caitlyn) The true essence of Caitlyn, the pure energy of Caitlyn, has always been and always will be. Caitlyn can never not be.
James Ray from the book the secret.
We have had a few sweet gifts left under Caitlyn's tree. Thank you to our friends that think of us. A hand made necklace, Disney princess globe, and a teddy bear. Thank you to girl scout troop 6145 for your donation to the National Childhood Cancer Foundation.
We made a very personal decision to donate her tumor to research in hopes that some day there will be a cure.
The Churak Family
