Sorry, I took the last week off from updating, so this may be long.
I'm still soul searching not so much how to get through this but what does this all mean. We saw a GREAT movie today called Evan Almighty. I had a few ooh moments during it -- like When God explained that God talks to us all and answers our prayers we just have to listen. If you pray for your family to be closer he does not necessarily send you all a warm fuzzy feeling inside about one another; but he gives you wood and tools to build an ark. ( you have to see the movie).
My question lately has been why did God give us Caitlyn if she only going to be here a short time. Also why were we given the knowledge that she may not be with us forever. Why do we have this grace period with an uncertain amount of time; but if you look at statistics death with in a few years. Why was she not taken instantly? Not that I would want that EVER. But what am I supposed to do with this grace period? What am I supposed to see? What have I been missing? What am I or Caitlyn supposed to finish? What are we to learn? There are so many questions and I keep my eyes open every day and try not to waste any moment of time.
Caitlyn is doing good. Her radiation will end this week - July 12th. The hair she lost is above her ears so her top hair covers it. Dr. Goldman is slowly taking her off the steroids. The steroid medicine has given Caitlyn a big appetite; so hopefully once she is off the medicine I will spend less time in the kitchen (YAY!)
Her MRI is July 23st. We don't expect to see much from it as her brain will be kind of jumbled from the radiation. They will just be able to tell if it is stable. We already think the tumor has shrunk because last week she had a cat scan. Caitlyn was soooooooo tired; and we were concerned -- so they did a cat scan just to make sure there was no water on the brain. It came back fine and Goldman told us it looks like the tumor has shrunk but he can not do any measurements with out an MRI. The reason she was soooo tired was too much FUN. We had a great 4th of July week.
I ran in the rally for young life 5K run. The route for this race runs right past our house. So halfway through the race, I got to my house and saw Jason and the kids sitting out front waiting for me to go by. This year Caitlyn, Jackson, and Patrick joined me as I went by. Caitlyn ran about a quarter of a mile with me. It was great. When she got tired we walked until we saw daddy with the car. I caught up with the boys and we all met daddy and Caitlyn at the finish line.
I have asked God numerous times for patience with my children and this is how he gave it to me. He had my three kids jump and join me during a 5k run just as I entered my zone. At first I thought, "Oh my time is going to stink!" Then I realized it's not the time we finish that counts but who was with along the way.
Thank you for visiting our site. Please don't forget about the other children who are linked to our site. So many are very close to getting their wings and need your prayers more then we do right now. Also please pray for Caitlyns uncle Mike who also battling a brain tumor as well. He started treatment the same time she did. This is such a coincidence because tumors are supposedly not genetic.
Kara
I'm still soul searching not so much how to get through this but what does this all mean. We saw a GREAT movie today called Evan Almighty. I had a few ooh moments during it -- like When God explained that God talks to us all and answers our prayers we just have to listen. If you pray for your family to be closer he does not necessarily send you all a warm fuzzy feeling inside about one another; but he gives you wood and tools to build an ark. ( you have to see the movie).
My question lately has been why did God give us Caitlyn if she only going to be here a short time. Also why were we given the knowledge that she may not be with us forever. Why do we have this grace period with an uncertain amount of time; but if you look at statistics death with in a few years. Why was she not taken instantly? Not that I would want that EVER. But what am I supposed to do with this grace period? What am I supposed to see? What have I been missing? What am I or Caitlyn supposed to finish? What are we to learn? There are so many questions and I keep my eyes open every day and try not to waste any moment of time.
Caitlyn is doing good. Her radiation will end this week - July 12th. The hair she lost is above her ears so her top hair covers it. Dr. Goldman is slowly taking her off the steroids. The steroid medicine has given Caitlyn a big appetite; so hopefully once she is off the medicine I will spend less time in the kitchen (YAY!)
Her MRI is July 23st. We don't expect to see much from it as her brain will be kind of jumbled from the radiation. They will just be able to tell if it is stable. We already think the tumor has shrunk because last week she had a cat scan. Caitlyn was soooooooo tired; and we were concerned -- so they did a cat scan just to make sure there was no water on the brain. It came back fine and Goldman told us it looks like the tumor has shrunk but he can not do any measurements with out an MRI. The reason she was soooo tired was too much FUN. We had a great 4th of July week.
I ran in the rally for young life 5K run. The route for this race runs right past our house. So halfway through the race, I got to my house and saw Jason and the kids sitting out front waiting for me to go by. This year Caitlyn, Jackson, and Patrick joined me as I went by. Caitlyn ran about a quarter of a mile with me. It was great. When she got tired we walked until we saw daddy with the car. I caught up with the boys and we all met daddy and Caitlyn at the finish line.
I have asked God numerous times for patience with my children and this is how he gave it to me. He had my three kids jump and join me during a 5k run just as I entered my zone. At first I thought, "Oh my time is going to stink!" Then I realized it's not the time we finish that counts but who was with along the way.
Thank you for visiting our site. Please don't forget about the other children who are linked to our site. So many are very close to getting their wings and need your prayers more then we do right now. Also please pray for Caitlyns uncle Mike who also battling a brain tumor as well. He started treatment the same time she did. This is such a coincidence because tumors are supposedly not genetic.
Kara
